Seen That Look Before

Released on March 22, 2019

I once shared an origin story, at a work dinner, about someone in my life that helped make me who I am today.  My story naturally came to talk about my grandma.

My grandparents lived nearby when I was young.  I would go there by myself and usually when I arrived, my grandfather would be lying down having a nap and if it was in the afternoon, my grandmother would be watching one of the many soap operas on TV.  As a child I never understood how much she enjoyed them, and if I knew now what I know, I would have visited at a different time, so as not to disturbed her.

When I would arrive, I would say hello to my grandpa and he would say where my grandma was.  If she was watching a soap, she would immediately turn it off and come sit in the veranda with me and my grandpa.

In today's world, you would say “just a minute while I record the show” or “I got it recording, how are you doing?”  But back then, the show was on the aerial, and there were no VCR’s, or PVR’s, or pause buttons on your iPad so that you could watch it later.  I was so important to her that she would immediately turn it off.

As I'm telling this story, I realize now that she was possibly the best listener that I ever knew.  Never interrupting me as I talked, and willing to always listen.  I have tried to be a person that listens to everything that someone says, but it is hard.  We are always trying to interject or comment before the person is done or our impatience gets in the way.  Often we miss so much interrupting people.  Sometimes people discussing a problem come up with their own solution on their own and only needed someone to listen.

Her death 30+ years ago probably is not something I ever got over.  As I think about this song, I know now that she was a great inspiration in my life.  She has been gone for more years than she was with me alive.  It's hard to forget someone, even after that amount of time.

This is a song about seeing loved ones again who are no longer with you.  This could be through your children, dreams, or even looking at yourself in a mirror.  It speaks of the importance of these people in our lives and how they have helped us to become who we are today.

This song, I dedicate to her.